I am so incredibly proud of myself. I wasn’t completely sure it was possible but today (Friday) is a red-letter day, my friends. I’ve been working on my knee-jerk responses to irritating and stressful situations. I’ve been trying to be a kinder, more compassionate, person. I’m trying to think then act, not just react. It hasn’t been easy but today was the day.
We have a lot of new people starting at the facility I live at. I usually have issues with new people. They annoy me. They’re either ridiculously desperate for approval, complete b****es who think they know everything or they can’t understand the fact that I’m only physically handicapped, not mentally. It drives me crazy when people talk to me like I’m 4-years-old or when they try to do everything for me.
The girl who started today was no exception. She kept referring to me as she (instead of addressing me directly). She kept complimenting me, which sounds nice but can get old after the first dozen or so! “I like your room”, “I like your jeans”, “Your hair is so thick and pretty”, “Nice shirt”, “Oh that lip gloss is my favorite too!”
Normally I start getting an attitude after about two-minutes of this fake, patronizing butt-kissing. Today I thought to myself, “Starting a new job can be hard. She isn’t trying to annoy me; she is just nervous about making a good impression.” I didn’t even have to make a conscious decision to be patient, it was my knee-jerk reaction!
I’m not saying that it suddenly didn’t bug me; I was still annoyed. Today I was able to not act annoyed though! I know that might not seem like a big deal to some people. I’m sure some of you are thinking, “Big freaking deal, it’s called being an adult!” You’re partly right. It is called being an adult and as a 32-year-old woman it is probably something I should have learned how to do by now.
Well I hadn’t.
It was hard for me; I’m a semi-spoiled, sarcastic, know-it-all. I didn’t let that stop me though. I kept at it and I finally was able to think before I acted. I’m going to go ahead and be proud of myself, thank you very much.